I am being away from others.
I hate it when some people used me.
I hate myself when I am too relying on someone
I hate when people accusing me of something I did not do.
To be in heaven it cost hardship.
To be better it needs big effort to push yourself
Yesterday, I had in an argue.
I had enough of her
She always makes my heart going heavy
She makes me do something that actually she can do it by herself
She thinks she can ask me to do anything she wants
She makes me lost my good friend which turn into enemy
She loves people got in trouble for her
She thinks people should pity on her
Good luck to her boyfriend of having her
There will be more trouble she can cause you
I already live in misery because of her
The way she treated me
The way she makes me live
Yes, I ended the so called friendship with a blow.
I asked her.. You never asked about am I fine or not
You have known that I am now with my grandma.
But, you never ask about how she is
What you want to ask is to do things for you
Right now
Right here
Alright
I don't want to see you anymore
I don't want to know anything about you
I am free
I know and remember the good deeds you have done for me
But..remember.. I used to ignore my health just to take you home
Our other friends didn't have the willingness to do so because sometimes you can be ridiculous.
You used to get sulk of someone of that day
Then,you asked us to come back for you as we just reached home after we sent you there.
The journey took us half an hour.
You never think that.. if we ever got tired?
You only care about we should care about you
People have costed a lot of money to show that we care YOU
But this time you are toooo much
Too much
When I said I cannot help you this time
You pissed off and forget everyday that I wasted my nap time..my holiday..just to sent you and to take you home...everyday.
As you left home
You never say thank you
Or say sorry for troubling me much
But after sometimes
You come back and ask me to do favour
This time around..
I am going to be away from people for awhile.
To give me time to breathe
It was traumatic and pathetic enough
People said I am too soft to her
But yesterday I was too harsh for her
Enough is enough
I am happy with my grandma.
She makes me smile eventhough she cannot memorize things right.
I am afraid her alzheirmer is showing day by day.
Sometimes in a few second she didn't remember who I am.
Then, I had to recall her.
We laughed as she remember
I laughed but in my heart I am scared.
Anyway, I am happy to help her at home and to do shopping for her.
She is happy that I can go with her scooter to buy her favourite food
