Being away from people

I am being away from others.
I hate it when some people used me.
I hate myself when I am too relying on someone
I hate when people accusing me of something I did not do.

To be in heaven it cost hardship.
To be better it needs big effort to push yourself

Yesterday, I had in an argue.
I had enough of her
She always makes my heart going heavy
She makes me do something that actually she can do it by herself
She thinks she can ask me to do anything she wants
She makes me lost my good friend which turn into enemy
She loves people got in trouble for her
She thinks people should pity on her
Good luck to her boyfriend of having her
There will be more trouble she can cause you
I already live in misery because of her
The way she treated me
The way she makes me live
Yes, I ended the so called friendship with a blow.
I asked her.. You never asked about am I fine or not
You have known that I am now with my grandma.
But, you never ask about how she is
What you want to ask is to do things for you
Right now
Right here
Alright
I don't want to see you anymore
I don't want to know anything about you
I am free
I know and remember the good deeds you have done for me
But..remember.. I used to ignore my health just to take you home
Our other friends didn't have the willingness to do so because sometimes you can be ridiculous.
You used to get sulk of someone of that day
Then,you asked us to come back for you as we just reached home after we sent you there.
The journey took us half an hour.
You never think that.. if we ever got tired?
You only care about we should care about you
People have costed a lot of money to show that we care YOU
But this time you are toooo much
Too much
When I said I cannot help you this time
You pissed off and forget everyday that I wasted my nap time..my holiday..just to sent you and to take you home...everyday.
As you left home
You never say thank you
Or say sorry for troubling me much
But after sometimes
You come back and ask me to do favour

This time around..
I am going to be away from people for awhile.
To give me time to breathe
It was traumatic and pathetic enough
People said I am too soft to her
But yesterday I was too harsh for her
Enough is enough
I am happy with my grandma.
She makes me smile eventhough she cannot memorize things right.
I am afraid her alzheirmer is showing day by day.
Sometimes in a few second she didn't remember who I am.
Then, I had to recall her.
We laughed as she remember
I laughed but in my heart I am scared.
Anyway, I am happy to help her at home and to do shopping for her.
She is happy that I can go with her scooter to buy her favourite food

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It WAS my own fault

I have a question
Why one doesn't stick with me
When one does stick
The one stick on the wall
Like a poster on the wall
But then it begins to wear off
and it's going to fall

I thought it was fated that way
Naturally
Because the "poster" is getting old
and the "adhesive".. is no longer any stronger

But..
It was my fault
I messed up
I should calm myself
And keep calm
Do not get too excited
Keep calm
Hypnotize yourself ,dear
Keep calm
keep calm
People loves you when you are calm
Laugh with calmness
Smile with calmness
Talk in calmness
walk and sit in calmness

Learn towards progression
Progression towards new worlds and new day

I miss silent way
Because silent is gold
Time is also gold
Let me use it wisely
Because I am getting old
I would getting married
I don't know when will I get married and to whom
But before I do
I have to make myself do more of me and new me

Ish, Ramadan datang lagi! VS Yeaaa, Ramadan datang lagi!

            

Masa kecil dulu saya tak suka bulan Ramadan sebab:

Nanti lapar.

Nanti badan jadi lemah.

Nanti mulut jadi busuk.

Nanti adik kecil saya makan depan saya, saya jadi tak keruan.

Nanti nak mandi laut atau sungai tak boleh sebab dikatakan makhruh.

Nanti bosan kalau Ramadan jatuh waktu cuti sekolah atau hujung minggu sebab tak boleh pergi mandi di sungai atau laut.

Nanti kena tolong mak masak dengan badan yang lemah.

Masa ke masa saya belajar ambil tahu mengenai bulan Ramadan.Saya semakin suka Ramadan sebab:

Nanti boleh jimatkan duit sebab siang tak perlu makan .Bulan Ramadan bulan untuk rehatkan perut. Perut mana ada mulut nak minta rehat. Allah Maha Pengasih Maha Penyayang. Bulan Ramadan bulan perut rehat.

Nanti kita akan diberi rehat berbanding masa bulan-bulan terdahulu kita asyik sibuk dan nak dapat rehat memang susah.

Nanti kita akan kurang bercakap. (Yelah, mulut kitakan busuk.Malu nak cakap banyak-banyak.Tapi tahukah anda bau mulut orang yang berpuasa lebih wangi daripada haruman kasturi di sisi Allah s.w.t. Si Perokok pula boleh berlatih berhenti merokok.

Nanti saya okay je kalau ada orang makan depan saya. Saya kan dah besar panjang. Hahaha. Lagipun, Syaitan-syaitan dibelenggu sepanjang bulan Ramadhan. Kalau saya nak batalkan juga puasa, siapalah setan tu ya?

Nanti-nanti je mandi laut dan sungai. Inilah masa untuk memerhatikan ciptaan Allah dan berzikir mengingati-Nya Bulan Ramadan baca quran tepi pantai? Uwauuuu

Nanti kalau banyak masa terluang. Isikan saja dengan membaca Al-Quran. Dahla Para malaikat memohon keampunan untuk orang yang berpuasa sehingga dia berbuka. Terdapat pada bulan ini Lailatul Qadar yang mana ianya lebih baik daripada seribu bulan. Sesiapa yang tidak mengambil peluang untuk membuat kebaikan dan beramal padanya maka dia telah melepaskan semua peluang kebaikan. Orang-orang yang berpuasa akan mendapat keampunan pada malam yang terakhir daripada bulan Ramadhan

Nanti saya masak sendiri dengan kawan-kawan.Bulan Ramadan juga bulan rahmat. Ada je dapat makan percuma. Jimat betul bulan puasa

Yes,you can speak English!

Most of us being afraid to speak in English as a foreigner asked us something in English. I met my two friends yesterday. They asked me to teach them English. They said they don’t know what to say if an international student asked them direction.

I said to them I believe they can speak or answering question about direction. The basic thing about showing direction is about turning left or right and going straight or going back. Anyway, most of us have learned English since we were very little. 

We just need a little courage to speak up. Don’t worry if you don’t pronounce it right; speaking too slow or grammatical error. What you are saying is important for them. No matter how slow you are, they are willing to listen and they have to try to understand.

               

My motto is to make things simple as possible. For example if one asked you, “How are you?” you can answer it “good”. Then, “How‘s your study?” and again you answer it good or you have difficulty in studying, you can just said “bad”.

Whatever it is don’t forget to read or listen anything in English to enrich your vocabs(vocabulary). If you have a favourite movie that you are not bored to watch it over and over again, keep watching but remember to get a movie with English subtitles. I recommend you to find “A life in Japan” video in youtube because they speak in easy English and it also with English subtitles. The stories in it are quite interesting and that will makes you easily remember.

Do you remember how you learned your mother tongue language? You didn’t start with learning how to read and spelling, right? Your mother didn’t ask you to memorize this is a television, this is a tree or teach how to spell it right? It is because we heard everyday people said this thing is a television, they love watering the trees and so on. Believe it or not we already how to speak in our mother tongue language before we went to school. 

About grammar? I tell you about it later. I am sure you want to write in English in a right way. I am not that good in English but I know easy English and I love sharing. See ya!

I love pat and pets

Pat(Tepuk) on the back means to give encouraging words or praise to someone 

while pet means an animal we can keep and nurture with love.



I love patting my friends if they're doing good job in our group assignment, games and stuff.

I love people doing the same to me too.

It may seem strange. I give myself a pat too if I do good in things.Haha.

or when I am sad.. I pat myself and tell to myself I'll be ok soon.

I got messed up these couple of months. I lose some and win some.

I gambled few things, I lost in the "game".

I do win some.But it isn't that much.

Send someone to love me :( I wish.

I am busy with silat cekak Malaysia because the training is getting tougher.



I sacrificed for not going to other clubs because I need rest and training for silat.

I hate when someone asked me what is my priority as I didn't go where he want me to be.

Dad sent me here (UNISEL) to study. My priority is to study. So?

I have family matters to look on and I have to volunteered myself to take care of this weak family bonds and strengthen it with love and care.

I don't want to be seen as someone who only one care about patani issues and others far away issues but ignore what's going on with my surroundings.

I live at Kota Puteri,Ijok and my Unismart friends at Kota Puteri struggling for SPM.We live very near.But,I should steal time to go seeing the Unismart friends and help them. They need someone to encourage them to do well in SPM.I am so relieved to have some Unisel's friends who would also do the same.

I love teaching for free for those in need because I used to have friends who taught me for free.I want to be just like them.I believe education will free you to "fly" high and soar in the "sky".

and I love pets

Cry for the moon.Me?

                              




Cry for the moon means to wish for something impossible. Since I was a kid, wishing for something impossible is my routine. I will either work on it to make it possible or just cry over it ( as I knew it would never be dream comes true). To work on something by making it real is totally a great experience. But to know that I am just wasting my time of trying is totally sucks! Whatever it is I always give a little hope and wait for for miracles. Other than that, I believe good people will get good life. God will always show His miracle when the time is just right.Am I right? I experience a lot with that. Yes, I'll wait while I keep in a good faith.Good luck to me and good luck to you