Reality of fear in Malay?

          



Realiti tentang takut

Kamu bukan takut dengan kegelapan
Kamu takut apa yang ada di dalamnya(dalam gelap).

Kamu bukan takut dengan tempat tinggi
Kamu takut terjatuh

Kamu bukan takut dengan orang yang disekeliling kamu,
Kamu cuma takut tidak diterima(orang)

Kamu bukan takut bercinta
Kamu cuma takut dicintai orang kamu cintai

Kamu bukan takut untuk melepaskan
Kamu cuma takut tidak dapat menerima realiti yang dia sudah pergi.

Kamu bukan takut untuk mencuba lagi.
Kamu cuma takut terluka lagi untuk sebab yang sama.

Me: I translated this while listening to

Why Try To Change Me Now

7 Rules of Life in Malay?

                 

7 Peraturan Hidup

1. Berdamailah dengan masa silam anda jadi anda tidak tersilap lagi pada masa depan
2. Apa yang orang fikir mengenai anda bukan menjadi urusan anda
3. Masa mengubati segalanya,jadi berilah waktu(untuk "sembuh")
4. Jangan membandingkan hidup anda dengan orang lain dan jangan menghakimi orang lain.Kamu tidak tahu  perjalanan hidup mereka sebenarnya.
5. Jangan terlalu memikir,lebih elok jika kita tidak tahu jawapannya.Jawapan-jawapan itu akan datang pada anda tanpa anda menjangkakannya.
6. Tiada siapa bertanggungjawab atas kebahagiaan anda kecuali anda.
7. Senyumlah.Bukan anda yang menanggung semua masalah di dunia ini.

                                                                                  Bisikan hati 

Things are pretty crazy and I have to take it easy.

                      

Things are pretty crazy and I have to take it easy.

Moving to a new house, went to Masscom workshop, became a facilitator for Unismart, making a book and video about Aceh and run for student council for my faculty.Phew!

OK, the longer you wait for something, the more you appreciate it when you get it because anything worth having is definitely worth waiting for.

Well, back when I was still a kid as I started to dream..

I dream to become a teacher and that’s why I love to play school with my childhood friends. Funny thing was I play school even I was alone or I was locked in the toilet because I got punished by my mom. Now, I am studying Diploma in Teaching English as a Second Language at the age of 26years old and I already teach English, Quran reciting and music for free for a start. I join some organizations to teach for free as a volunteer. GPTD and MPN are my best platform. By the way, I still got a couple of years to complete my studies. Phew!

I dream to become a singer or song writer. I love singing. I don’t know when I started to sing. What I know is I started talking as I was 3 years old and as far as I can remember I love to do parody to some of my favourite songs since I was a kid. I make songs to tease on people too and still keep doing that.  As I was 17, I became more serious in my song writing. I made a song a day after my late grandmother passed away and it’s for her and more songs coming with motivation words along with them. I dreamed a lot in my sleep. I dreamed that a big group of people singing my song. I dreamed about it many times and yes, at the age of 24, I got friends who do cover for my songs as I let them listened to my song sang by my little sister, Muhsinah. At the age of 25, I have made my song sang at my religious school upstage with some friends and it became a hit in that school and as I worked in a shop, my colleagues love the song and sing it back. They even also memorize my song. I made a song for my class’ assignment in Unisel and just for fun. Then, for the songs, I got invited to sing upstage with my GPTD's friend  for the convocational night, for my friend’s project and as a gift. Love this!

I love looking into the mirror while I wore long towel on my head, put head band and decorate it with fake flowers on top of it as a kid. I was imagining myself as a bride. I have no idea when will this dream  come true. Hmm the longer you wait for something, the more you appreciate it when you get it because anything worth having is definitely worth waiting for? Ok, for a mean time… I‘ll try to make myself useful while waiting for my “big day”. Best wishes. Amin

Semester 2 in Unisel Bestari Jaya with my housemates

                    

Look how happy we were in semester 2.. Me and my housemates. :(
We usually build happy memories by the lake. Unisel's lake. The lake is beautiful and our memories by the lake were also beautiful. I hope we can do it again for the next semester.

I got bad news while I was working in a shop(Kedai Wahab) on New Year's Eve. Things got pretty crazy as I found out I had to move out from Unisel's hostel.

GPTD's advisor,Mr Izwan Suhadak have planned to put me and my other GPTD's friends in a house and I can tag along my housemates to move into the house at a village nearby.

The saddest part was.... we are soon to be apart. My housemates has decided to move into the house that they will be placed by Unisel. Their parents are not dare enough to let their daughters to move outside of the campus.

YEAH,the hostels of Unisel have some problem going on and it has to go under maintenance.

Since I will be missing my housemates.. Let me introduce them via trivia.

10 things about Kholees in Unisel Bestari Jaya Sem 2 2012

10 things about Syud,Umai and Amiera in Unisel Bestari Jaya Sem 2 2012

10 things about Alya and Bee in Unisel Bestari Jaya Sem 2 2012

10 things about Alya and Bee in Unisel Bestari Jaya Sem 2 2012

1. I still seldom call Alya as Cantik (a nickname that given by Syud)

           
                       kholees sayang cantik :( jeles

2.Bee has become a prolific card maker and sorts of creativity. Those has "bestow" her money. You should check out her fb. She is an artist.
            

3.Alya hates my kisses but she misses me when I am not around.

4. Alya loves to sat on my bed and asked me to play guitar for her so she can sing her favourite songs.

5.Bee loves her chair and desk.That's why she spends her time more with "them" rather than with me.. Haha.

6.Bee loves to plug on her headphone and doze away.

7.Bee loves when I speak to her and she loves when I am speechless then I ran off because of her evil eyes.. Haha.

8.Bee love to save herself and Alya with her "evil eyes". I love to tease them but I am not too dare with Bee's evil eyes.

                   
            Evil in the eyes but angel in the heart XD

9. When I speak in serious mood. Alya knows I am in a deep trouble.

10. Only Bee being sad as I lied to her that I am moving out. I just want to know who among my housemate would don't want me to leave. Only Bee surpass that test.. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. They do want me to leave. And I am really going now :(

10 things about Syud,Umai and Amiera in Unisel Bestari Jaya Sem 2 2012

1.Syud and Humai love to fight of things that I don't understand. They usually shout and scream in their room but then they laughed away.. Weird enough. Sometimes, Syud screamed my name for help because Humai was harassing her. I'll do nothing. I laughed in my room with Kholees because I knew they'll be good in another seconds.

                         

2.Amiera Azhar loves syud very much. She regards Syud as her "wiseman". She bought gifts for Syud every time she came from her holiday with her family.

               

3.Amiera Azhar is also know as Double A for this semester 2

4.Syud is a mother cat. Yes, she loves keeping Hello Kitty stuff but she also wanted to keep a real cat which at first I think a bad idea. But then, I love that cat too. It was an injured cat. Syud, Humai and Bee really dedicated of taking care of the cat. They cleaned its wound with dettol and fed the cat everyday.

5. Amiera loves her study desk and she made a make-over her notice board.

6.Syud and Humai love to sing in semester 1 but as we're in exam weeks for semester 2, they came to my room singing together with me while accompanied with me playing guitar. We made a video for that.

7.Humai loves Jep Sepah and she left me and Syud while we're in the middle of singing for Trouble is a friend song. Jep happened to be in TV in that time. She won't missed it.Yeah, we recorded the "tragedy" in the video.

8.Amiera Azhar has a very nice voice. :) She is good to go with ballad songs.

9.Three of them study hard for this final exam. They studied harder than the last semester. Singing with me was just to release their stress.

10.Syud loves to see me as pretty as her too. She made me wore black face mask, hair recovery mask hair, eating vitamin C pills and sleep earlier(I disobeyed that one.hehe). I typed this till late at night okay. It's 1.52 a.m now. Sorry syud. Sleepless for you.. owh now it's 1.53 a.am

                                 

10 things about Kholees in Unisel Bestari Jaya Sem 2 2012

1.She improved much on her class presentations. She speaks much better and yet funnier gestures. Because of that I said "Is that my roomate?!"

2.She learned to play guitar and I admired her spirit of how she improved her guitar skills day by day. Within 4 months, she's able to  play happy birthday song with the guitar and some coldplay songs. I taught her a little but she work a lot on guitar's skill and she is able to learn by herself now. 

3.She loves to sweep the floor. She loves her carpet she brought for sem 2 and keep it clean.

4. She bought a bag which shaped of a guitar which has attracted many people as she passes by.As she bought it, she wasn't sure to carry the bag to class. I jokingly said to her that one day I will accompany her to class with my own guitar bag.. It really happen though! HAHA!

                      

5.She loves playing games.PC games and outdoor games.

6.She keeps a blog name KISAH RATU GAMES and she wrote about me.. Em a memorable one. She knows me well. Haha..Well, she's my roomate. Can I keep her?!!! Nak buat keychain..huhu.(awkward moment..bak kata alya..krik krik..)

7. I learned to know her blog because I typed my name in the google and my name is in a blog..It was her blog and she didn't tell me that she has a blog. She said her blog is boring.. I said.. I want to show her blog to my children and my grandchildren.

8. It was an individual presentation.This is our first time. We usually have group presentations. She made me wild as she took up the challenge.. no slides for presentation!!

She already work hard on the slides for hours and then the lecturer said no projector? She braced herself and she did it...! I love you,KHOLEES! 

9.She took up the challenge to be a leader for mr bakri's presentation. For all this time she let me and Que to be the leader. Maybe because I am older than my classmates.. I usually became the leader for a presentation but I am so impressed with my younger classmates because I think they can do well without me.Yes, I have seen how they're doing.Well, trust yourself. Even though I am 20 something but my heart is still 18years old because I'm also like you, lack of experiences. We ask around if we don't know. Try and error and we'll understand.

10. She hates when I kiss her but she loves when I miss her. Haha